Ignored. That’s what I felt when you walked past me and didn’t even look at me like how you always would. Hurt, technically, I don’t have the right to be hut because there’s nothing going. You were the perfect one, or at least I am still convincing myself that you were even though the clues were obvious that you weren’t. Stubborn. I was so into the illusion of you because it felt like heaven on earth. Your mask showed me all what I wanted to see and so I adored you so much that I lived in a make-believe world of you and me. Stupid. I became so addicted writing poetry about you, hoping that it’s the start of the love story more beautiful than a fairy tale. But I was slapped hard by the truth that it is not I who always control this thing called destiny.
You ignored me like I never existed. It’s this time that I finally figured out you, the real you. That thing that happened right now made me realize that your faultlessness was not real. You also made mistakes. Why wasn’t I able to see that you’re also human? I am annoyed that I was so hooked into your being. You approached me with your open soul and I immediately fell into that beautifully crafted trap. It looked like paradise so I watered the feelings and took care of the emotions that bloomed into mighty flowers always longing, always following the light and warmth of the sun. I made you my sun. And that was so wrong.
Now, you’re undressed in your costume. I understood clearly that you, my sun, wasn’t always bright. And maybe you weren’t my sun in the first place. Therefore, I decided to stop making you the center of my universe. I wanted to pursue you and I wanted you to pursue me, but I will stop because it’ll only make us more insane. Though I still like like you a lot, I will stop in this daydreaming. We’ll still pass by each other every now and then. You will continue to ignore me
which I really will never understand why. I will still steal glances of you. But all these things luring me to still like you, I will fight… Because you, my beautiful illusion, has been uncovered..